Life isn't treating me that good recently, or should I say since my dad's diagnosed with cancer again. I realised I don't feel the same as before. I lost my appetite and sometimes I just don't feel moving anymore. I feel like there's this really huge stuff inside my stomach doing something strange to me..... I started praying a lot, waking up early in the sunday morning going to church.
I am scared of losing something I am having now. Family, friends and my property..... ok~ property as in pen, pencils, ruler, rubber, etc.
As usual, after lunch, went computer lab, got really emo and yea..... can't really hold back my tears anymore. Thanks Amy for writing me that note and not offering me tissue.
Some days, I don't even feel like saying hi or talking to anyone. I just lose interest in talking. But I know, life still goes on...... grrrrr~~~~
& I am going back to JB for the really long weekend!
I've been thinking of you a lot recently, like today during physiology lecture. Wonder what you are doing now, what are you up to recently and stuff. I felt like calling you but I realised it is impossible for me to contact you through phone. It's like totally impossible. The only way to contact you is like..... geez~ only through MSN? FB? and you don't even reply my email. & I know I am supposed to be listening in class.
and sometimes even when you are online, I wanted to talk to you but I am scared that you are too busy to even say hi to me. I would really want to let you know that I really need you now, to at least pat my head and squeeze my shoulder or give me a warm hug if you want to. & I've got lots to tell you, about things that's going on around me.
I guess, I Will have to give up on all these thoughts tho...... it's like so impossible to happen because you are like so far away. Even if you are near me, things will never be the same again.
what an emo post..... but I feel better now..... grrrr~~~ physiology is killing me. After today's lecture, I don't think I want babies in the future....
The any nasi goreng at poolside has shrunk in size because I can finish the rice now!
IT's too little for me tho....
I am scared of losing something I am having now. Family, friends and my property..... ok~ property as in pen, pencils, ruler, rubber, etc.
As usual, after lunch, went computer lab, got really emo and yea..... can't really hold back my tears anymore. Thanks Amy for writing me that note and not offering me tissue.
Some days, I don't even feel like saying hi or talking to anyone. I just lose interest in talking. But I know, life still goes on...... grrrrr~~~~
& I am going back to JB for the really long weekend!
I've been thinking of you a lot recently, like today during physiology lecture. Wonder what you are doing now, what are you up to recently and stuff. I felt like calling you but I realised it is impossible for me to contact you through phone. It's like totally impossible. The only way to contact you is like..... geez~ only through MSN? FB? and you don't even reply my email. & I know I am supposed to be listening in class.
and sometimes even when you are online, I wanted to talk to you but I am scared that you are too busy to even say hi to me. I would really want to let you know that I really need you now, to at least pat my head and squeeze my shoulder or give me a warm hug if you want to. & I've got lots to tell you, about things that's going on around me.
I guess, I Will have to give up on all these thoughts tho...... it's like so impossible to happen because you are like so far away. Even if you are near me, things will never be the same again.
what an emo post..... but I feel better now..... grrrr~~~ physiology is killing me. After today's lecture, I don't think I want babies in the future....
The any nasi goreng at poolside has shrunk in size because I can finish the rice now!
IT's too little for me tho....
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